A kinda different winter break

Well, I'm a person who have a really busy schedule. At the end of Winter break where I handed in all my school work and finish the last shift of my part time job. I started feel so lost, because those things I used to do just don't need me any more. Well, I try to hang out with my friend, but slowly I realised that they are not so close with me any more.The girl's friend I used to had is hanging out with another girl which I'm actually pretty happy for her. I means I don't usually have so much time for her and our topic is getting lesser and lesser, I'm happy that she found someone who can make her laugh and suite her personality. It's not a bad thing for both of us.

The crucial point and dilemma I had is am I get abandoned by this world? I means I try to ask someone out but it's just no one I can ask. Literally, no one. Not a single one, but fortunately thanks to my best friend again, I finally make a new friend who makes me start to think about my life , who I am and what I actually want. I just realise I always change myself according to surrounding expectation. However, that's not who I am! I am who I am,

• simple girl, 
• don't like complication stuff, 
• be nice, 
• sometimes talk mean and bossy, 
• used to be spoiled kid by family and friends. 
• Like to act mature, 
• a lot fancy about relationship. 

I am who I am, and one true fact about me is 宁缺毋滥，which means rather have nothing instead of having something that's not what I want.

Not sure whether this new guy will be my permanent friend in the future, but thanks for making me realise something I've lost last time. :)